*College* Entry 1

hi guys! missed me? yeah i missed you too..
As you can see I'm still awake and its near 3:00 in the morning.

I had enough dramas in my life so i decided to tell you guys.. Its fine right? .. Thanks :)

I have this one friend of mine and his really annoying.. He never knows who to choose between me and his ex-girlfriend..

I actually am happy of what I knew. Is it weird yeah I treated him like my lover but i didn't love him that much i guess.. Because I already knew this was coming so i prepared myself for this.. and now it doesn't hurt what a relief..Although I cried sometimes for him for simple reasons and now i don't care anymore haha.. This is just like what happened with the other one of my closest friend now who had a crush on me back then .. We never talked personally more like on social sites haha xD..."

I don't feel any regrets now... I want to face the future with my head up and not forgetting to look back.. All my experiences made me know more about the world that i didn't know i could possibly encounter ..

I feel bad for him because he has this thought stuck in his head.. "Nobody Loves Me,, They All Hate Me..and etc.. " stuff like that and I hate him for being like that.. Why can't he see the great things to worry about and not to focus on negativity.. His like getting on my nerves .. I could just Slap him in the face and say "Don't Be Nega! Nothing good comes from being like that!!!!" hahaha.. I wish I could ..

I also don't like his ex-girlfriend what so ever.. She is so what term was it.. hmm temporarily "DESPERATE" arguing with me and saying things that aren't true .. beacause I know my reasons and I don't care if they are going to be together again for so I care.. I'll even congratulate them but before that I'm gonna slap the freaking annoying face of theirs .. Making me caught up with their shits and fucking problems.. Can i just put up a sign that says "GET THE HELL OUTTA MY LIFE.. I HATE PROBLEMS!!!" hahaha that would be fun :D
I hate her being desperate about her ex.. Like duh.. If you see me.. I would be like "Meh.. K whatever . hahah xD "
I hate her for calling me an "Option" and "Obsessed" GIRL... yeah some people might mistake me for that when it comes to people I adore so much.. Well its a habit and I think the opposite of the situation like.. when I call more than five times .. I'm thinking "Let's continue calling them.. I'm bored.. " something like that :P
Actually all they say about me are their opinion not mine and my opinion is my only priority right now.. Hella Bitches! I don't give I freaking care about what your opinion is..

"I am who I am" ..Really hahah

I'm used to getting emotional pain from strangers,friends and family.. You don't know how sad and how it hurts so much to experience this things at a young age.... Made my mind create my imaginary self/friend.. I was happy plotting many mischief and naughty things then but I am a kind person..
For people who doesn't know me.. Yeah, I've hurt many but I'll apologize even if its their fault.

What's the use of explaining yourself if no one even listens and understands you right?

It's hard to find someone like that but luckily I found one but still not sure :D

I don't like commitment .. If I say so myself because of what I experienced .. Being committed to something/someone can hurt so badly.. I tell you ..It really hurts :'(
But what can you do right? Its Life :3
If you're not gonna face it, it'll make you drown so hard and die..


I feel relieved now because I'm not caged anymore from him.. I feel happy here at my hometown .. I find happiness here and same time loneliness ...

Well that's for today.."

Good Night Bloggers! :*

~Anika-Chubs <3